Hi everyone
My names Emma I'm 27 from N.Ireland. I had my 1st child in June 2015. My daughter Caitlyn was born at 30weeks so 10weeks premature due to pre-eclampsia she weighed a tiny little 2lb 15oz.
I had an emergency C-section due to my bp being very high and Caitlyn's heart traces went very sleepy, she also stopped growing from 28/29 weeks.
I was in hospital the week before Caitlyn was born due to the pre-eclampsia. On the Wednesday I had a scan at 5pm, in which I was told my baby had stopped growing and fluid had reduced around her and they where going to have to deliver her in next few days, they had to fine a NICU bed 1st. 7pm Dr came to see me on ward and said they found a bed and transferring me asap by ambulance.
Ambulance arrived at 730 and I was taken to another hospital with sirens and flashing lights, ambulance was flying down the road. I arrived at 8pm usually would take roughly 50/60mins. I was put on baby heart rate monitor, consultant thought I'd be taken to theatre at 9am next morning and by 12am consultant became very concerned as baby hadn't kicked and her trace was sleepy, I was told I was being taken to theatre now. Caitlyn was born at 1:36am. I only got to see her over the sheet and in the incubator for a minute. It was 530am before I got to be taken to NICU to meet my daughter.
She was in NICU for 4 weeks before getting to bring her home, I spent everyday in the hospital with her.
She was back in hospital after 2 months due to an abscess that is when the PTSD started.
I'm now constantly in fear of losing my daughter, having nightmares most nights, constantly waking during the night. Having flashbacks triggered by sounds and smells. I also have separation anxiety and if I'm not with Caitlyn I'm freaking out. I am seeing a counselor and on medication.
My names Emma I'm 27 from N.Ireland. I had my 1st child in June 2015. My daughter Caitlyn was born at 30weeks so 10weeks premature due to pre-eclampsia she weighed a tiny little 2lb 15oz.
I had an emergency C-section due to my bp being very high and Caitlyn's heart traces went very sleepy, she also stopped growing from 28/29 weeks.
I was in hospital the week before Caitlyn was born due to the pre-eclampsia. On the Wednesday I had a scan at 5pm, in which I was told my baby had stopped growing and fluid had reduced around her and they where going to have to deliver her in next few days, they had to fine a NICU bed 1st. 7pm Dr came to see me on ward and said they found a bed and transferring me asap by ambulance.
Ambulance arrived at 730 and I was taken to another hospital with sirens and flashing lights, ambulance was flying down the road. I arrived at 8pm usually would take roughly 50/60mins. I was put on baby heart rate monitor, consultant thought I'd be taken to theatre at 9am next morning and by 12am consultant became very concerned as baby hadn't kicked and her trace was sleepy, I was told I was being taken to theatre now. Caitlyn was born at 1:36am. I only got to see her over the sheet and in the incubator for a minute. It was 530am before I got to be taken to NICU to meet my daughter.
She was in NICU for 4 weeks before getting to bring her home, I spent everyday in the hospital with her.
She was back in hospital after 2 months due to an abscess that is when the PTSD started.
I'm now constantly in fear of losing my daughter, having nightmares most nights, constantly waking during the night. Having flashbacks triggered by sounds and smells. I also have separation anxiety and if I'm not with Caitlyn I'm freaking out. I am seeing a counselor and on medication.