I think that I have ptsd from a bad mushroom trip a few weeks ago in which I thought I had died and was in the afterlife. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for most of my life. I had, and still hold on to, reasons for why I did the mushrooms. I am going to see a therapist to figure out whether what I've been experiencing is in fact ptsd but everything I've read points in that direction. I've lost weight as a result of lack of apatite, I have a general sense that everything is dangerous somehow, I had to move out of my previous residence where the bad trip happened. I'm wondering who has had a similar experience to mine. My plan as of now actually consists of going to a therapist who I will request guidance on exposure therapy, visiting this board, and to be honest I feel like doing a small dose of mushrooms in a safe environment will actually help me. I feel like this is akin to facing my fear to some degree although I'm unsure how much of this is part of my previous expectation that hallucinogens will heal me. I did lsd when I was 15 and somehow all of my previous anxiety and depression vanished for several months. My anxiety did come roaring back after that period but ever since I've been convinced that hallucinogens are the answer for me and it's just a matter of figuring out how to use them properly and at the right frequency. The bad trip I had recently was the result of foolishly taking far to much and being unprepared for the intensity of the trip. I feel that I've ignored the important set and setting aspects of a trip and that's why they haven't helped me. I should say that I'm now 28 so for over 12 years I've been obsessing about how one day I'll figure this out and then everything will be fine. I don't know if mushrooms will help me at all but I feel compelled to find out. I'm not entirely convinced that healing has to be a painful process, but maybe I'm just too afraid to truly face my fears, or maybe I'm too afraid to face them alone. Thanks for any advice or guidance. I'd really appreciate hearing from anyone who has dealt with ptsd from a bad trip, but really anyone who wants to help.