Hello...
I have joined up as after ten years of trying to cope alone with PTSD, I have come to realise that I can't carry on without help... After seven years of keeping my secret I had a melt down at work and blurted my story out to my boss. I regret this, but you can't unsay something....
I have experienced mental health problems since a teenager. I experienced difficult relationships with my parents growing up and I entered adult hood feeling depressed, anxious and lost. I began taking Effexor, an SSRI, when I was 24, went to therapy, took up yoga and gardening and by 29 I had learnt a lot about myself and how to take better care of myself. I decided to withdraw from the Effexor. Unfortunately I suffered a severe withdrawal reaction and entered a world of psychosis and mania that ended up with being sectioned twice and forcibly treated. The delusions that I experienced were terrifying and unrelenting for three months. I repeatedly told the doctors and nurses that I was ill due to withdrawal. They did not accept this and I was seen as difficult... I won a tribunal and therefore became a voluntary patient. I managed to persuade them to prescribe Effexor again and I was immediately transported back to reality.
I realise that a lot of people feel benefits from medication, any thing which helps people feel better has got to be a good thing and it is not my intention to deny anyone else's experience. However the withdrawal from these drugs ripped my life and my mind apart and I guess that I am still struggling to make sense of it...
I haven't seen a medical professional for my mental health in eight years and I don't intend for that to change. However I realise I need help... I am struggling to contain and hide how I am feeling and I feel unbearably vulnerable because of that.
I have many symptoms of PTSD which relate to the treatment I received whilst in hospital, as well as experiencing psychosis, which came with a feeling of terror and fear that lasted for what seemed forever....
I now think that seeking a therapist for support is needed. I intend to seek one on a private basis, as I will never seek out help from psychiatric services or doctors for matters of the mind. The difficult bit is finding someone to trust and someone who will believe what happened to me....
I know that I can't carry on like this.... So I have been mooching about on the Internet and ended up here.... Hello everyone...
I have joined up as after ten years of trying to cope alone with PTSD, I have come to realise that I can't carry on without help... After seven years of keeping my secret I had a melt down at work and blurted my story out to my boss. I regret this, but you can't unsay something....
I have experienced mental health problems since a teenager. I experienced difficult relationships with my parents growing up and I entered adult hood feeling depressed, anxious and lost. I began taking Effexor, an SSRI, when I was 24, went to therapy, took up yoga and gardening and by 29 I had learnt a lot about myself and how to take better care of myself. I decided to withdraw from the Effexor. Unfortunately I suffered a severe withdrawal reaction and entered a world of psychosis and mania that ended up with being sectioned twice and forcibly treated. The delusions that I experienced were terrifying and unrelenting for three months. I repeatedly told the doctors and nurses that I was ill due to withdrawal. They did not accept this and I was seen as difficult... I won a tribunal and therefore became a voluntary patient. I managed to persuade them to prescribe Effexor again and I was immediately transported back to reality.
I realise that a lot of people feel benefits from medication, any thing which helps people feel better has got to be a good thing and it is not my intention to deny anyone else's experience. However the withdrawal from these drugs ripped my life and my mind apart and I guess that I am still struggling to make sense of it...
I haven't seen a medical professional for my mental health in eight years and I don't intend for that to change. However I realise I need help... I am struggling to contain and hide how I am feeling and I feel unbearably vulnerable because of that.
I have many symptoms of PTSD which relate to the treatment I received whilst in hospital, as well as experiencing psychosis, which came with a feeling of terror and fear that lasted for what seemed forever....
I now think that seeking a therapist for support is needed. I intend to seek one on a private basis, as I will never seek out help from psychiatric services or doctors for matters of the mind. The difficult bit is finding someone to trust and someone who will believe what happened to me....
I know that I can't carry on like this.... So I have been mooching about on the Internet and ended up here.... Hello everyone...