girlinterrupted
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I guess this is where I'd post this. I so often have these questions that pop up into my head. It's after surviving my trauma. And I find myself in more relationships with people who remind me of one's that have caused my grief.
I'm not currently with anyone but my emotions get overbearing sometimes and I feel the need to soothe over things with friends. Especially when they're angry with me. One friend got angry with me so I asked for a meeting between us and a close friend to make sure that my friend understands that I'm coming from a loving place.
Then I start to worry that I'm being manipulative. I wonder if this is an issue for others. I worry that I'm being manipulative by trying to show my emotions to others. I fall down this rabbit hole of feeling like I'm the one at fault and I should swallow my feelings. Am I being manipulative?
I have questioned my whole sense of self and who I am after all of it. I wonder if all my interactions if I'm just being the bad guy. I don't know if this makes sense but please tell me if you've ever felt this way after. I always feel like I'm the one hurting others and making them feel bad. I don't want to play a victim card.
Ah okay my head's hurting. The rabbit hole is too deep but please tell me I'm not alone in this thought process. I was very neglected and abused as a child and I worry so much that I am that way too.
I'm not currently with anyone but my emotions get overbearing sometimes and I feel the need to soothe over things with friends. Especially when they're angry with me. One friend got angry with me so I asked for a meeting between us and a close friend to make sure that my friend understands that I'm coming from a loving place.
Then I start to worry that I'm being manipulative. I wonder if this is an issue for others. I worry that I'm being manipulative by trying to show my emotions to others. I fall down this rabbit hole of feeling like I'm the one at fault and I should swallow my feelings. Am I being manipulative?
I have questioned my whole sense of self and who I am after all of it. I wonder if all my interactions if I'm just being the bad guy. I don't know if this makes sense but please tell me if you've ever felt this way after. I always feel like I'm the one hurting others and making them feel bad. I don't want to play a victim card.
Ah okay my head's hurting. The rabbit hole is too deep but please tell me I'm not alone in this thought process. I was very neglected and abused as a child and I worry so much that I am that way too.