Hi, I suffer from CPTSD, anxiety and depression and I am struggling trying to raise my 2 girls. I'm not raising them alone, however I am a stay at home mom as I am unfit to work. I feel unfit to raise my kids, if I'm being honest. I struggle daily to just get through the day and my CPTSD symptoms are so bad that I can't be alone with the kids during the day in case I go into a dissociative state, mine can last for hours, or I have a panic attack and scare the crap out of them. My father comes every day during the week to help me with them and I feel horrible that he basically is giving up his life taking care of MY kids. My dad is 69 and does not need this every day. I feel like a complete failure as a mother every day. Most days I can't do anything with them as I have to concentrate on staying present or I'm stuck in a never ending flashback. My kids also are very triggering to me as loud noises scare the shit out of me and send me into panic attacks, I wear earplugs most of the time to try to combat that, but they make me feel like I'm disconnected from everything around me. I am on several meds and they all have a side effect of being sensitive to sunlight, combined with my natural sensitivity it actually creates a horrible chemical reaction to the sun and it's very painful so the last 2 summers I have been basically house bound making everything even worse. Can anyone relate to this? Does anyone have an advice?