i am really having a hard night after a breakthrough in my therapy yesterday, a good thing, but, after looking f?or support from who i thought was someone who understood me, being kicked in the teeth by her questioning whether my 'stories' were even accurate or was it my own 'faulty' perception? WTF?
Sorry, i am angry after having gone through tears and hurt. i guess i had always looked to her to be a mother figure with UNconditional love, but i have to remember she is not a professional and she brings to the table her own preconceived assumptions and ideas, of which she is quite vocal. i feel like the Jews must have felt when people started saying the holocaust never happened-bull!!
i was molested at four years by my mother's boyfriend, my dad committed suicide when i was five. .my mother hated me and was extremely abusive with no boundaries and my brother beat me daily. i left home at ten only to be put in an abusive foster home...AND guess what ?? It was ALL real. and it happened and i have been working on my stuff now for 10 years with a male therapist i trust with my life after a lifetime of misdiagnoses and hospitalizations and suppressed feelings and emotions. need to just vent and say that sometimes it feels so isolated here when i know that some days are harder than others..thanks for giving me a place to be. it was real, it did happen and as a kid, i was not believed and i will be damned if i am not believed now, years later as an adult. thanks.
Sorry, i am angry after having gone through tears and hurt. i guess i had always looked to her to be a mother figure with UNconditional love, but i have to remember she is not a professional and she brings to the table her own preconceived assumptions and ideas, of which she is quite vocal. i feel like the Jews must have felt when people started saying the holocaust never happened-bull!!
i was molested at four years by my mother's boyfriend, my dad committed suicide when i was five. .my mother hated me and was extremely abusive with no boundaries and my brother beat me daily. i left home at ten only to be put in an abusive foster home...AND guess what ?? It was ALL real. and it happened and i have been working on my stuff now for 10 years with a male therapist i trust with my life after a lifetime of misdiagnoses and hospitalizations and suppressed feelings and emotions. need to just vent and say that sometimes it feels so isolated here when i know that some days are harder than others..thanks for giving me a place to be. it was real, it did happen and as a kid, i was not believed and i will be damned if i am not believed now, years later as an adult. thanks.