Blackjack
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I am hoping that some of you might be able to help me or offer me some advice.
All throughout my PTSD diagnosis and up until now, I have been working full time. I had been seeing a qualified therapist privately as the NHS wait was so long and I have now swapped to a lady that I have been seeing for a while who whilst not qualified by exams or anything is a fellow PTSD sufferer who now has hers well under control and she is proving to be a big help to me with the PTSD, depression and other life stuff that I have going on.
My problem is, I am really struggling at work. I permanently feel like I am not 'on the ball' and am slow in stuff that I do and just cannot seem to engage my brain and focus like I used to be able to do. I just cannot seem to concentrate like I should do, have no motivation and have to really force myself to try and focus on the job in hand. I feel permanently tired and teary too.
All of this is not helped by my back injury and the vast quantity of pain meds that I am taking for that. I do not sleep well and am in constant pain from that.
I feel like I could do with a real break from everything but I am scared of getting into trouble at work or loosing my job due to being off sick. I had a change of role within my company a while back and things are very behind in the department and I just don't feel able to take time off from it. I know that part of the reason things are behind is because I am not getting through as much work as I should because of how I am. Also if I am off sick, then that will mean I will be at home and will be in the company of my narcissist mother all day which I could not cope with.
I am really worried about getting sacked for not doing enough and not being on the ball and scared of my whole future right now. I cannot put myself in a situation where I am out of work as we rely heavily on my money. I just don't know what to do to be honest.
All throughout my PTSD diagnosis and up until now, I have been working full time. I had been seeing a qualified therapist privately as the NHS wait was so long and I have now swapped to a lady that I have been seeing for a while who whilst not qualified by exams or anything is a fellow PTSD sufferer who now has hers well under control and she is proving to be a big help to me with the PTSD, depression and other life stuff that I have going on.
My problem is, I am really struggling at work. I permanently feel like I am not 'on the ball' and am slow in stuff that I do and just cannot seem to engage my brain and focus like I used to be able to do. I just cannot seem to concentrate like I should do, have no motivation and have to really force myself to try and focus on the job in hand. I feel permanently tired and teary too.
All of this is not helped by my back injury and the vast quantity of pain meds that I am taking for that. I do not sleep well and am in constant pain from that.
I feel like I could do with a real break from everything but I am scared of getting into trouble at work or loosing my job due to being off sick. I had a change of role within my company a while back and things are very behind in the department and I just don't feel able to take time off from it. I know that part of the reason things are behind is because I am not getting through as much work as I should because of how I am. Also if I am off sick, then that will mean I will be at home and will be in the company of my narcissist mother all day which I could not cope with.
I am really worried about getting sacked for not doing enough and not being on the ball and scared of my whole future right now. I cannot put myself in a situation where I am out of work as we rely heavily on my money. I just don't know what to do to be honest.