Meadowsweet
MyPTSD Pro
I have multiple traumas that I had never spoken about to anybody. So when I started therapy, I had the idea that if I told somebody about my experiences during therapy, I would then be able to leave it behind.
I visualise it like removing the trauma from my body and leaving in the therapy room, and going home without it.
But I've talked about the most significant traumas at least once (some more than once) and progress isn't as fast as I had hoped it would be.
I dissociate when I'm talking about it, which I guess doesn't help, because the emotion doesn't come. And the small progress that I've made is that the dissociating is getting less than it was. I am also crying as I realise the emotional needs surrounding the abuse not being met, although I still feel less emotional about the actual traumas.
But I get so sick and tired of bringing up trauma, I just want to get it out of my system and move on. So I'm wondering how many times do I need to talk about trauma before I can move on? Or, what do I have to do to be able to stop it being such a big thing?
I visualise it like removing the trauma from my body and leaving in the therapy room, and going home without it.
But I've talked about the most significant traumas at least once (some more than once) and progress isn't as fast as I had hoped it would be.
I dissociate when I'm talking about it, which I guess doesn't help, because the emotion doesn't come. And the small progress that I've made is that the dissociating is getting less than it was. I am also crying as I realise the emotional needs surrounding the abuse not being met, although I still feel less emotional about the actual traumas.
But I get so sick and tired of bringing up trauma, I just want to get it out of my system and move on. So I'm wondering how many times do I need to talk about trauma before I can move on? Or, what do I have to do to be able to stop it being such a big thing?