So I’ve had the same reoccurring nightmare since I was assaulted (5 years ago). It has come and gone, worse sometimes than others. Lately it’s gotten so bad that I’m afraid to fall asleep. It’s less of a nightmare and more of an awful memory of making eye contact with my rapist during the assault. It’s so clear and I can practically feel him on me. I can’t handle it anymore. I feel like I’m losing my mind and I’m so exhausted. Any ideas? Someone suggested trying to change the end of the dream, but to me that seems like trying to change the reality of what happened. I’m avoidant already- the last thing I need to do is convince myself that it didn’t happen or ended differently.