It occurred to me today that each and every time I had issues somewhere that I could not sort out (which seemed to be everywhere), I had to run away to give myself relief. This has turned into a vicious cycle of having less and less tolerance, (cause this ain't my first rodeo anymore) and then booting it.
I don't really seem to think through the 'booting it to where?' issue and whether it would be good for me in the long run. I just hit the road.
I was, during the time of my PTSD presenting itself as a freeze/fawner, pretty immobilized, but now that I am not doing that anymore, it seems like my MO is to run. I also wonder if I am not freeze/fawning anymore because I did the 'ultimate run' when I 'booted it' to California, leaving most issues behind.
I am wondering, if any of you have had experience with running (maybe a few of you have :meh:), is there anything you have been able to do to ground yourself out of wanting to run? Also, how has being a 'runner' affected you?
Thank you.
I don't really seem to think through the 'booting it to where?' issue and whether it would be good for me in the long run. I just hit the road.
I was, during the time of my PTSD presenting itself as a freeze/fawner, pretty immobilized, but now that I am not doing that anymore, it seems like my MO is to run. I also wonder if I am not freeze/fawning anymore because I did the 'ultimate run' when I 'booted it' to California, leaving most issues behind.
I am wondering, if any of you have had experience with running (maybe a few of you have :meh:), is there anything you have been able to do to ground yourself out of wanting to run? Also, how has being a 'runner' affected you?
Thank you.