ReachingOutJ
Confident
Hello:
I was recently diagnosed with C-PTSD from non-combat (non military) problems. I've been taking a low dose of Clonazepam, daily, for almost 8 months. I have guilt and shame for taking the medication, but I'm trying to work through it. I've never been on meds before, and it's sometimes scary for me. I suffered a nervous breakdown after going through multiple traumas, last year.
Right now, I sometimes tremble through my Clonazepam doses, I feel alone and scared; because my boyfriend doesn't fully understand what I am going through, and my family just tells me to "get over it." When I first went on this medication, my mother screamed at me on the phone, and called me a "drug addict," then she hung up on me. My family dynamic is toxic. I grew up in a violent home, and two of my male family members have raped me.
I have had several verbally and physically abusive relationships, and I am worn down to a stump. I go to talk therapy once a week, and I'm trying my best to get well, but it has not been easy. I am in a situation where financially I am in trouble, and both my bf and I depend on my family for a place to live. I work at home on the computer, and it is all I have; a commission job. BF is currently unemployed, and also has anger/emotional issues, from being emotionally abandoned by his family.
I recently went through an intense medical drama with sleep apnea, and it was very scary. The house I am stuck living in is contributing to my PTSD and triggering me. I am reaching out for comfort and empathy.
I was recently diagnosed with C-PTSD from non-combat (non military) problems. I've been taking a low dose of Clonazepam, daily, for almost 8 months. I have guilt and shame for taking the medication, but I'm trying to work through it. I've never been on meds before, and it's sometimes scary for me. I suffered a nervous breakdown after going through multiple traumas, last year.
Right now, I sometimes tremble through my Clonazepam doses, I feel alone and scared; because my boyfriend doesn't fully understand what I am going through, and my family just tells me to "get over it." When I first went on this medication, my mother screamed at me on the phone, and called me a "drug addict," then she hung up on me. My family dynamic is toxic. I grew up in a violent home, and two of my male family members have raped me.
I have had several verbally and physically abusive relationships, and I am worn down to a stump. I go to talk therapy once a week, and I'm trying my best to get well, but it has not been easy. I am in a situation where financially I am in trouble, and both my bf and I depend on my family for a place to live. I work at home on the computer, and it is all I have; a commission job. BF is currently unemployed, and also has anger/emotional issues, from being emotionally abandoned by his family.
I recently went through an intense medical drama with sleep apnea, and it was very scary. The house I am stuck living in is contributing to my PTSD and triggering me. I am reaching out for comfort and empathy.