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We can chat a bit anonymously. This feels extra shameful, like therapist don't even want to hear about it. But I was physically and sexually abused by my mom. She was a stranger to me...possibly BPD or DID....never an obvious, nurturing Mom. She scared me more than anything in the world. I have had to work through loads of self hatred, body hatred, suicide attempts, trying to take care of myself but not believing I really have the right to exist. Also, I don't have any close relationships...not even sure I want them. It's taking me a long time to realize what effect this stuff has had on my whole life.
Anyone relate? Male or female, molested by mother. How has it been a horrible hurdle for you to recover? I seem lacking in my core, like I can't hold myself up more. I'm on opiates for the related pain. It's pretty crazy deep. If I could crawl into a little shell, behind a rock, I'd feel better.
Anyone relate? Male or female, molested by mother. How has it been a horrible hurdle for you to recover? I seem lacking in my core, like I can't hold myself up more. I'm on opiates for the related pain. It's pretty crazy deep. If I could crawl into a little shell, behind a rock, I'd feel better.