Sideways
Moderator
2 things to know about me in advance: I can't burp, and I don't get sexually aroused (unless you really physically force it).
After at least 3 particularly sadistic and painful lesson, my abuser finally decided it was time for me to learn that I was a Whore of God. This lesson was more than just him being his old gentle self...it was erotic. Deliberately erotic and sexually stimulating.
Got no qualms with having been sexually stimulated at the time. Normal physiological reaction ("normal" being the operative word - it was painful then, the same way that arousal is physically painful now...weird...bygones).
Thing is, when I'm getting flashbacks of this lesson (and they're coming thick and fast - hooray), I can feel him physically stimulating me, and I get aroused...by the flashback.
It's weird that I'm getting aroused, because that never happens. But being aroused just by a flashback- that's weird. They didn't write about that in the textbooks. So wtf?
Does this happen? Please tell me that this happens - that you can get aroused by a flashback...totally normal, right???
After at least 3 particularly sadistic and painful lesson, my abuser finally decided it was time for me to learn that I was a Whore of God. This lesson was more than just him being his old gentle self...it was erotic. Deliberately erotic and sexually stimulating.
Got no qualms with having been sexually stimulated at the time. Normal physiological reaction ("normal" being the operative word - it was painful then, the same way that arousal is physically painful now...weird...bygones).
Thing is, when I'm getting flashbacks of this lesson (and they're coming thick and fast - hooray), I can feel him physically stimulating me, and I get aroused...by the flashback.
It's weird that I'm getting aroused, because that never happens. But being aroused just by a flashback- that's weird. They didn't write about that in the textbooks. So wtf?
Does this happen? Please tell me that this happens - that you can get aroused by a flashback...totally normal, right???