frogthroat
MyPTSD Pro
Has anyone out there been abused by members of the same sex or both sexes? My male abuser was much more violent than my female abuser even though she was rough too. I'm sometimes still aroused just by the humiliation I felt by the things they did to me. I struggle with sexuality, porn addiction, and fetishes. I've cut down on my porn watching and I'm trying to stop watching it altogether. Sometimes I watch it just so I'm able to cry. This seems like self torture to me. I'm currently unable to have sex or a relationship.
This isn't right but I find myself sometimes thinking she was the "gentler" one even though she would do disgusting things to me including sexually assaulting me in a bathroom stall. I perhaps I think better of her because she would at least sometimes hold me after she would rape me. Reading this as I type it really disturbs me. I wonder if any of you struggle with these things as well?
This isn't right but I find myself sometimes thinking she was the "gentler" one even though she would do disgusting things to me including sexually assaulting me in a bathroom stall. I perhaps I think better of her because she would at least sometimes hold me after she would rape me. Reading this as I type it really disturbs me. I wonder if any of you struggle with these things as well?