I keep forgetting that helping others is something that really helps me to feel a lot better, about myself and about life in general. When I am feeling suicidal, I leave off doing these kinds of things. However, even though I feel as if I have nothing to give, when I do help someone, I immediately do feel better. It is just such a hard thing to do when one is so depressed. I feel valueless then, as if I am so far gone that I could not possibly help someone. However, that is not true. Even though I am down in the dumps right now, I did do something to try to help someone. It made me feel a little better about myself. As to whether I really helped or not, only time will tell.