OverLoaded
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Woke up and my brain went bad. I couldn't fall asleep started losing interests and hardly talked.
Waited for ambulance for over 2 hours while something in my brain said you should hang yourself with this cord. Now I feel suicidal almost all the time. The feeling of death having me but first take all you love away. Leave me to ask my doctor to kill me or beg for something to stop this I can't take it.
After the first thought and not doing anything I have tried many ways and over 50 times to kill myself. My body can't live like I'm in a coma and heard and saw everything not able to get away.
I've never felt so helpless and watching ppl with basic things like cbt or sleep hygiene it don't work for everyone when you have more than one problem. I want to sleep so much and wake up like I did most of my life and enjoy things again.
My brain is telling me this because it has run out of options and just wants peace and connection to me and other ppl. Being worried to tell ppl I think I want to kill myself makes ppl treat you like you should be in hospital but if they do nothing how do I get better.
Waited for ambulance for over 2 hours while something in my brain said you should hang yourself with this cord. Now I feel suicidal almost all the time. The feeling of death having me but first take all you love away. Leave me to ask my doctor to kill me or beg for something to stop this I can't take it.
After the first thought and not doing anything I have tried many ways and over 50 times to kill myself. My body can't live like I'm in a coma and heard and saw everything not able to get away.
I've never felt so helpless and watching ppl with basic things like cbt or sleep hygiene it don't work for everyone when you have more than one problem. I want to sleep so much and wake up like I did most of my life and enjoy things again.
My brain is telling me this because it has run out of options and just wants peace and connection to me and other ppl. Being worried to tell ppl I think I want to kill myself makes ppl treat you like you should be in hospital but if they do nothing how do I get better.