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Lost my mom in past year...have a father who is a psychopath or sociopath. So manipulative. While he pretends to have compassion - he doesn't. It's all a show. Says the most insensitive things, and only concerned about himself.
Even in time of great need - always judgment - judgment - judgment. Lesson to be taught to me. And I was a good kid. Most parent's would have wanted a child like me...responsible, great grades, honor student, volunteered, helped those in need. Even as an adult he has so much judgement on me -- thinking he needs to teach me lessons.
My lessons....recurring nightmares of war/end of world. Missing time - being told I'm describing dissociation by doctor.
When I was a very young teenager I confronted my mom why my dad "hated me so much." She broke down, and told me it's been like this since I was born. Even non-immediate family members say they picked-up on this...
I'm no longer a teenager... I'm an adult going through hard time dealing with my youth after suppressing it for so long... and I DON"T understand how a parent could "hate" their child so much. People say I'm really smart - but this concept I cannot comprehend. Not that any child, or person, ever needs to try to understand why a parent hates them since they were born....
Even in time of great need - always judgment - judgment - judgment. Lesson to be taught to me. And I was a good kid. Most parent's would have wanted a child like me...responsible, great grades, honor student, volunteered, helped those in need. Even as an adult he has so much judgement on me -- thinking he needs to teach me lessons.
My lessons....recurring nightmares of war/end of world. Missing time - being told I'm describing dissociation by doctor.
When I was a very young teenager I confronted my mom why my dad "hated me so much." She broke down, and told me it's been like this since I was born. Even non-immediate family members say they picked-up on this...
I'm no longer a teenager... I'm an adult going through hard time dealing with my youth after suppressing it for so long... and I DON"T understand how a parent could "hate" their child so much. People say I'm really smart - but this concept I cannot comprehend. Not that any child, or person, ever needs to try to understand why a parent hates them since they were born....