mumstheword
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I just thought I'd share this because it's a little new for me to feel grief and consideration for young me. Having been raised in such a demoralising, spiteful and neglectful way by my mother and just very neglectful and complicit way by my Dad, I learnt that I had no value. I let myself be very abused, raped, assaulted, drugged, gaslit, threatened, neglected, etc, in a criminal way. I'm just now feeling some empathy for young me instead of just shame and self judgement. I wasn't treated right or given a chance from the very beginning.
I'm grieving for my young self and I wish I could reach out and let her know she deserved so much better. That she was a good person being treated very badly and none of it was deserved or her fault or a reflection of her worth. I'm so sad and crying for her, it's amazing she survived at all. I'm still broken because of so many, many years of abuse and neglect and sexual exploitation and violence and hatred inflicted on myself.
This is a shout out to others in the same boat. There's an integral part of me and you they never touched. The rest can be loved and validated back into wholeness, I believe. ((((((Hugs))))) and tears all round for anyone who can relate.
I'm grieving for my young self and I wish I could reach out and let her know she deserved so much better. That she was a good person being treated very badly and none of it was deserved or her fault or a reflection of her worth. I'm so sad and crying for her, it's amazing she survived at all. I'm still broken because of so many, many years of abuse and neglect and sexual exploitation and violence and hatred inflicted on myself.
This is a shout out to others in the same boat. There's an integral part of me and you they never touched. The rest can be loved and validated back into wholeness, I believe. ((((((Hugs))))) and tears all round for anyone who can relate.
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