I was sexually abused as a child and have what feels like body memories from the abuse. Many years ago, I felt like I had to pee all the time, no cause was found even after multiple tests and seeing a specialist. They put me on a medication and after a year I stopped taking it due to side effects and I ended up doing fine.
On a semi regular basis, I feel like things are not right in my pelvic area. There isn't anything specific I would describe as traditional physical pain or something that requires medical attention, its often this vague sensation that things are not right and I need to protect myself or process something lurking in my pelvic area. At its worst, generally when I am dealing with more intense flashbacks or memories, I feel like there is an ice block that is on fire in my vagina. I talk to my therapist about it and she said she had another client with a similar history and nearly identical descriptions as mine.
Today I went to urgent care due to a urinary tract infection and the pain and anxiety I felt were terrible. I get tearful, feel like I am going to fall apart and just can't cope well. Does anyone else have somatic memories from their trauma? Sometimes it's hard not to feel like I am crazy or I am sentenced to a life of these weird feelings in my pelvic area.
On a semi regular basis, I feel like things are not right in my pelvic area. There isn't anything specific I would describe as traditional physical pain or something that requires medical attention, its often this vague sensation that things are not right and I need to protect myself or process something lurking in my pelvic area. At its worst, generally when I am dealing with more intense flashbacks or memories, I feel like there is an ice block that is on fire in my vagina. I talk to my therapist about it and she said she had another client with a similar history and nearly identical descriptions as mine.
Today I went to urgent care due to a urinary tract infection and the pain and anxiety I felt were terrible. I get tearful, feel like I am going to fall apart and just can't cope well. Does anyone else have somatic memories from their trauma? Sometimes it's hard not to feel like I am crazy or I am sentenced to a life of these weird feelings in my pelvic area.