Another story, with personal struggles.
I had this Idealization of soleness. I used to be interested in Henry David Thoreau, Robin Davidson, Christopher McCandless or other humans who used to leave the so-called society, escaping social expectations. I knew very well why I idealized this way of living, but just through rationalizing I couldnt get off from it. My concept of it is most probably naiv and romanticizing but I need to hold on to that. Because in reality most of them fled, hoping to get rid of those personal demons and some of them even died from starvation. One could ask, well why do you just talk about it? Why dont you just try? I cant, Not now..... maybe on an experiment for a few weeks.
The truth is, that I am not capable of human relationships, not capable doesnt mean that its just done and over. Its not something that has to stay that way, but I just cant bear the fact that I get hurt again. So, thats a very familiar story to many. But I try my best to work on that. Moving away might help for a while, but I take myself with me, My struggles, my pain. So self transformation needs to be done first, and then who knows how things develop
I was wondering if someone is here who actually lived as a hermit?
Thanks
I had this Idealization of soleness. I used to be interested in Henry David Thoreau, Robin Davidson, Christopher McCandless or other humans who used to leave the so-called society, escaping social expectations. I knew very well why I idealized this way of living, but just through rationalizing I couldnt get off from it. My concept of it is most probably naiv and romanticizing but I need to hold on to that. Because in reality most of them fled, hoping to get rid of those personal demons and some of them even died from starvation. One could ask, well why do you just talk about it? Why dont you just try? I cant, Not now..... maybe on an experiment for a few weeks.
The truth is, that I am not capable of human relationships, not capable doesnt mean that its just done and over. Its not something that has to stay that way, but I just cant bear the fact that I get hurt again. So, thats a very familiar story to many. But I try my best to work on that. Moving away might help for a while, but I take myself with me, My struggles, my pain. So self transformation needs to be done first, and then who knows how things develop
I was wondering if someone is here who actually lived as a hermit?
Thanks