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Spinning Out of Control?

Discussion in 'General' started by wildfirewildone, Nov 8, 2007.

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  1. wildfirewildone

    wildfirewildone Well-Known Member

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    :eek::dontknow::eek: My body and brain are in a whirl right now.....Can't even get into what's been going on....but it all started when I went to the funeral of an old family friend this morning....been gone from home since 10 am on Wed. and got home at 8:30.....Overload....:dontknow: SEEKING THE PEACE
     
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    How are you now, honeybun?
    Keep breathing.
    Eat something good for you and drink lots of water, and go to bed. You do alot of healing when your body is asleep.

    2quilt
     
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    :wall:This is what I feel I've been doing since the new bad memory came back on Sunday....Wed. when I went to the funeral home I was driving into the town where I had graduated high school.....As I passed the street that goes down to the high school...I had another new bad memory relating to something that happened with a teacher there when I was 16.....For some crazy notion I just forcefully pushed both of them away so I thought I could handle it.....WRONG!!!....Got up this morning [Thurs.] and my body just collapsed from all the strain.....and I spent 2 hours on the couch just laying there....my body felt like it was totally lacking energy :eek: SCARY!!!!! Fortunately I saw my T tonight....Before I left home I realized that I was going to somehow tell my T about the new memories....Something in my body told me I better do it or else....So with great difficulty I told him...hiding behind my bunnie.....He was as gentle as usual and no harm came of it....Needless to say the payoff has been priceless....My mind is more clear and the stress level is down to manageable levels.....Tomorrow I have to make 2 appointments with specialists....One to a surgeon to remove a growing lump on my back [told it was a fatty tumor] and the ENT doc because I've been having some ringing in my ears....I was to do that this morning but didn't have the ability to even dial the phone :eek: It is also part of my total collapse this am....I now know that I will be talking to my T about other memories....I have a sign in my head that says JUST DO IT.....I have been really pushing hard to keep so much in that I can no longer trust my body systems to maintain the farce....For me the fear of talking and the pain and embarrassment with it was a lot less than the pains my body has been giving me while covering up my stuff....I don't know what tomorrow will bring....but I only need to deal with 1 day at a time.....SEEKING THE PEACE
     
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    Hang on to Bunny!
    We are here for you!
    Do you have a local support list of people who can come over?
    Keep eating good food and don't get dehydrated and sleep well!
     
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