Hi, I was searching for some interactive forum to discuss PTSD issues with others and WAA LAA, I found this forum. I am glad. Here is a not so brief synopsis of the last few years. My husband and I have been married for about 2 1/2 years...dated for about 6 years before taking the leap. Exactly one week after we were married, he left to train with the unit he was "cross-leveled" (but later found out he volunteered) to in a different state. We saw each other twice briefly before he left, on our first visit I found out that I was pregnant with a wedding night baby and then for Thanksgiving. He left for Kuwait Christmas Day of 2004 and was on the ground in Iraq in mid-January 2005. We kept in contact several times a week and in June 2005 he was able to come home for the birth of our son for two weeks. It was incredible to have him with me, but also was my first indication of the problems to come. After his return to Iraq (primarly Ramadi - Anbar) he called DAILY if he could...wanting to know how his son was and how I was getting along. Throughout his deployment we dreamed of the future...moving out of the suburbs and back to his small town he grew up in...a nice place in the country to have some peace. He returned in December 2005 (I think I am still waiting for HIM to return) and two weeks later started a job in that small town we dreamed of...we lived apart for another 4 months as I stayed to sell our house and he stayed in our rustic cabin (no plumbing..wood heat...no place for baby). We saw each other on the weekends and had problems. He said it was the stress of not being together, adjusting to civilian life, etc... Finally the house sold and in April 2006, I left my home state, a very good job, friends and relatives and moved to the country with my husband and son to fulfill the dreams that brought us through his deployment. He sought help in the summer and was diagnosed with depression/PTSD, prescribed an anti-depressant and saw a counselor 4 times that was paid for by the military. He decided to stop seeing the counselor, stop taking his medication, and increase his method of self medication (marijuana). Recently he revisited counseling and medication and we are seeing a counselor together as well. Two days ago he told me he is moving out in 4 days to live at the cabin indefinately. He said he cannot recover or heal with me around. We are very different and he no longer appreciates my type B personality. There are many details between the lines, but I have already written too much...more will come later I suppose. Anyways...HI!