I am really struggling at the moment. I am surviving on so little sleep it is stupid. I feel exhausted, and yet I am not tired? I feel like there is a video playing constantly in my head at times, and the stop button is broken, and the video is jumping around and not running properly. It is ridiculous, I literally can't make sense of anything. All I know is that I end up curled in a ball with such unbelievable body tension and urges to do something drasic, and it is terrifying me. I think I am doing something with my jaw lately too, grinding it or something, it really hurts (i'm not doing drugs). I keep trying to stop this, by counting, or focusing on something in the room, but it is not helping this f***ing tension. I am terrified, it is windy out, and it keeps rushing up against the roof and scaring the hell out of me. It's only wind! I feel like I am drowning, can someone help me? What can I do? I feel seriously crazy, and I am at my absolute wits end, I have locked myself in my room.