Not well tonight. Realize now that when I'm at my worst I'm rendered practically speechless. Horrible night....Horrible...Horrible...Horrible. Deeply hurt, alone and don't know what to do, or how, who, when, where to ask for help. Ashamed to be posting my garbage when I should be stronger than this. Oh' how I intensely hate :cussing: certain characteristics of some people. Alone with this and have been crying and cussing someone out to myself. Feel drained and rendered powerless to do much of anything. My thoughts, my solutions are too much. Again, haven't any real solution tonight on how to cope with this. :drugs: Please pardon, me be in such a pathetic state of mind. So sorry as my timing is so f'n poor.