lostforgottensoul
MyPTSD Pro
I was sitting her thinking of the old poem "The Dash" Dead Link Removed specifcally my mom's "dash". [Month and day] 1955 - 7/23/2016. That dash means so much. How she chose to live her life. The cult she chose to buy into and raise me in. The things she forced me to do and watch by while others forced me to do. The sexual stuff, the animals, the beliefs. Insanity!
That dash encompasses a lot of my dash too. That little dash means so much to me. I cant seem to let the dash go, or accept the dash, or forgive the dash, or not hate the dash. Does that dash define her? Or any of us? Hating the dash, does that mean I hated her?
Part of that dash is my trauma. Im still playing what ifs. What if she didnt meet my step father? What if she decided to protect me instead of buying into garbage? What if, what if, what if.
Its so confusing. Sorry to write a confusing thread. Maybe would have been better as a diary entry.
Its a great poem though. What will you do with that dash? I plan on figuring all of this out, hopefully before I die. I plan to take my dash back from them and let their dash be their dash and let it die with them. Yeah, thats confusing but makes sense to me lol.
That dash encompasses a lot of my dash too. That little dash means so much to me. I cant seem to let the dash go, or accept the dash, or forgive the dash, or not hate the dash. Does that dash define her? Or any of us? Hating the dash, does that mean I hated her?
Part of that dash is my trauma. Im still playing what ifs. What if she didnt meet my step father? What if she decided to protect me instead of buying into garbage? What if, what if, what if.
Its so confusing. Sorry to write a confusing thread. Maybe would have been better as a diary entry.
Its a great poem though. What will you do with that dash? I plan on figuring all of this out, hopefully before I die. I plan to take my dash back from them and let their dash be their dash and let it die with them. Yeah, thats confusing but makes sense to me lol.