Very immobile again today.I had a disturbing dream that happened in two parts; I was a guy doing work for some rich guy and I found out he murdered all his employees. And lots and lots of children. I spent lots of time trying to run away from him while he chased me. I woke up for a few hours and was quite agitated although still tired. Wrote a post on the thread about the divorced guy who claimed ptsd, about some of the emotional abuse I suffered in my procreating relationship, it opened up a gaping wound. I eventually went back to sleep and continued running away from this murderer and trying to warn other employees and children. It seemed he wasn't interested in killing me, was just toying with me and he let me get away but I couldn't convince the children and other employees of the danger they were in. I'm so tired and resourceless-feeling today. I read some very hitting-home stuff about being caught up with narcissists in Shimmerz trauma diary and I shared it with my guy. He got heaps triggered by it and I felt so guilty and cried. We are both constantly agonized for our children who's other parents are narcissistic. At the moment there are children in the clutches of each one of these narcissists. It's a truly horrible, reality and feels really terrible and psychologically torturous for both of us. We love our children so much.