So every week I'm psyching myself up for therapy. Trying to plan how to be effective and try to talk about things that are important to me right now etc. I feel like I'm lacking structure and never get anything out of therapy.
So a whole week goes by and we finally come to that hour. I'm in it and just sitting there pretty much unable to say anything of any importance, and getting angry at myself that this hour is quickly passing without anything being said. It's not that I'm pressuring myself. It's just what is the point? I can't do it anyway. What's the point in wasting my energy all week worrying about how to help myself when therapy doesn't seem to help?
It seems like a futile waste of time. I feel like I'm failing at therapy (if you can lol) and that it's a reflection of how I'm failing at life.
I just want to be able to try to participate during that one hour so that I may actually start to realise some benefit in my day-to-day life.
So a whole week goes by and we finally come to that hour. I'm in it and just sitting there pretty much unable to say anything of any importance, and getting angry at myself that this hour is quickly passing without anything being said. It's not that I'm pressuring myself. It's just what is the point? I can't do it anyway. What's the point in wasting my energy all week worrying about how to help myself when therapy doesn't seem to help?
It seems like a futile waste of time. I feel like I'm failing at therapy (if you can lol) and that it's a reflection of how I'm failing at life.
I just want to be able to try to participate during that one hour so that I may actually start to realise some benefit in my day-to-day life.