Okay, here it goes... The other day my dad asked me how I was doing. Well, lately I've been having a lot of nightmares which in turn has increased my other symptoms ie, anxiety flashbacks, intrusive thoughts, etc. So I told him, "So - so, just PTSD stuff." He asked me if it was my stuff or was it other peoples stuff. I told him other peoples stuff was just my PTSD too. (We're mainly talking about anxiety). So he says "everybody gets anxiety kid, it's not exclusive to PTSD. Your always so quick to blame it on PTSD." I got pissed and said I know that other people get anxiety but mine is PTSD "and you don't have to live with it, so you don't know what you're talking about."
He just shut up right there and that was the end of that conversation.
So, I go in and tell my mom what happened and she says to me. We know you have PTSD but you don't always have to say it. (Mind you, They are the ones that ask how I'm doing) She says I should just say 'I'm depressed today' or 'I don't feel good.' Now can somebody please tell me how that is any better than saying I'm having some symptoms? It's not like this happens every day or anything. Some days I manage my symptoms quite well! It's just that when I have bad days they can tell, so they ask me how I am or what's going on. It's really quite frustrating honestly.
Anyway the next day (yesterday actually) I spent in bed, all f'ed up with symptoms (my mother abused me when I was a kid, so I got pretty triggered). When my mother asked me what was wrong, I said "nothing." Later, she asked me if I was mad at her... Insanity! That's all I can say. My mother is nuts!
So, I'm just venting here. This is my first official vent on this forum. Any response is always appreciated.
Take care all, Morgan
He just shut up right there and that was the end of that conversation.
So, I go in and tell my mom what happened and she says to me. We know you have PTSD but you don't always have to say it. (Mind you, They are the ones that ask how I'm doing) She says I should just say 'I'm depressed today' or 'I don't feel good.' Now can somebody please tell me how that is any better than saying I'm having some symptoms? It's not like this happens every day or anything. Some days I manage my symptoms quite well! It's just that when I have bad days they can tell, so they ask me how I am or what's going on. It's really quite frustrating honestly.
Anyway the next day (yesterday actually) I spent in bed, all f'ed up with symptoms (my mother abused me when I was a kid, so I got pretty triggered). When my mother asked me what was wrong, I said "nothing." Later, she asked me if I was mad at her... Insanity! That's all I can say. My mother is nuts!
So, I'm just venting here. This is my first official vent on this forum. Any response is always appreciated.
Take care all, Morgan