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I have no energy left. No hope. No immediate plans to kill myself... Not even enough energy for that.
It's 3:40 pm and I've done NOTHING today. No, wait! I managed to put on a coat and get into my car. That's it. Sitting in car. Trying to figure out what to do next. Trying NOT to think about all the things I need to do.
I need help. I've said these words to some close family but... Nothing. I know the problem there... My family has different goals than I do (the goals I used to be passionate about & that I'm clinging to bc otherwise I have nothing driving me).
To be sure, they want me to be "better" but the road to getting there is vastly different in our minds so... I'm all alone.
Like really really alone. This site has been helpful beyond belief but you guys can't jump out of the screen, hold my hand and HELP me.
I abhor asking for help. But circumstances have pushed me toward it and to not get anything out of it after all that pillaging against it, that's hard.
"The only one who can help you is you"... But. I. Can't. Believe me, I've tried.
It's 3:40 pm and I've done NOTHING today. No, wait! I managed to put on a coat and get into my car. That's it. Sitting in car. Trying to figure out what to do next. Trying NOT to think about all the things I need to do.
I need help. I've said these words to some close family but... Nothing. I know the problem there... My family has different goals than I do (the goals I used to be passionate about & that I'm clinging to bc otherwise I have nothing driving me).
To be sure, they want me to be "better" but the road to getting there is vastly different in our minds so... I'm all alone.
Like really really alone. This site has been helpful beyond belief but you guys can't jump out of the screen, hold my hand and HELP me.
I abhor asking for help. But circumstances have pushed me toward it and to not get anything out of it after all that pillaging against it, that's hard.
"The only one who can help you is you"... But. I. Can't. Believe me, I've tried.