Hi everyone! I am a newby here, but have had PTSD for many years and have been doing fairly well for quite a while.
My Mom passed away on July 13th after a long illness that combines the worst of ALS and Parkinson's. I thought I was ready to sustain the loss and the complicated grief, and was doing as well as could be expected - sad, numb, isolating, avoidant - but basically OK.
I took three weeks off from my Serious Desk Job.
When I came back, I found out there had been a computer "upgrade" and the "improvement" had not only wiped out my Away Message, but my computer didn't work for about three days.... No one understood why I wasn't responding to emails, people in the office did almost nothing to take up the slack, I had three weeks of work to catch up on.
I went ballistic! I still cannot control my emotions. I am irritable and jumpy. I yell at people. I am irrational. I am eating too much, have no interest in exercise, and am passive aggressive about paying my bills on time.
It took me a while to figure it out, but - OF COURSE! It is PTSD all over again! NO WONDER! I think I could have dealt with the grief OK, but the crap at my office is what put me over the top. It isn't so much the grieving process I need help with, it is the PTSD symptoms.
I would really welcome some thoughts on how to deal with this better than I have been.
Thanks!
My Mom passed away on July 13th after a long illness that combines the worst of ALS and Parkinson's. I thought I was ready to sustain the loss and the complicated grief, and was doing as well as could be expected - sad, numb, isolating, avoidant - but basically OK.
I took three weeks off from my Serious Desk Job.
When I came back, I found out there had been a computer "upgrade" and the "improvement" had not only wiped out my Away Message, but my computer didn't work for about three days.... No one understood why I wasn't responding to emails, people in the office did almost nothing to take up the slack, I had three weeks of work to catch up on.
I went ballistic! I still cannot control my emotions. I am irritable and jumpy. I yell at people. I am irrational. I am eating too much, have no interest in exercise, and am passive aggressive about paying my bills on time.
It took me a while to figure it out, but - OF COURSE! It is PTSD all over again! NO WONDER! I think I could have dealt with the grief OK, but the crap at my office is what put me over the top. It isn't so much the grieving process I need help with, it is the PTSD symptoms.
I would really welcome some thoughts on how to deal with this better than I have been.
Thanks!