Meadowsweet
MyPTSD Pro
Last time I had therapy, it was cut short (by my therapist) because she didn't feel experienced enough to deal with the way I compartmentalize myself and the dissociation I experience sometimes. She recognised it as a coping mechanism that enables me to function in different aspects of my life, and she was concerned that trauma work could destabilize that and leave me unable to function enough to do the things I need to do.
Since not being in therapy, I feel that I've improved a lot. When I feel off balance, I do the things I've learned, like grounding and relaxation. But I also feel more accepting about compartmentalizing myself, because it does enable me to function at work and at home - just not socially. I drink a bit more often than I should (but not excessively) and I eat more than i should, and I recognise that these are emotional comforts. But generally speaking I'm well and positive.
But a couple of weeks ago, the rape and sexual abuse center my old therapist referred me to, got in touch. They left a message saying they are now able to offer me therapy. But I haven't returned the call, because I don't want to talk about it anymore, I just want to get on with my life.
But yesterday something someone said (or the way they said it) brought on some quite vivid memories. I thought it had eased slightly today, and went out to the shop. But in the shop everything became very unreal and I had to leave.
I slept all afternoon, and had a cry, so I'll probably be ok for ages now. But it's left me thinking about whether therapy would help, or whether it would just make things worse.
Opinions and advice would be gratefully received.
Since not being in therapy, I feel that I've improved a lot. When I feel off balance, I do the things I've learned, like grounding and relaxation. But I also feel more accepting about compartmentalizing myself, because it does enable me to function at work and at home - just not socially. I drink a bit more often than I should (but not excessively) and I eat more than i should, and I recognise that these are emotional comforts. But generally speaking I'm well and positive.
But a couple of weeks ago, the rape and sexual abuse center my old therapist referred me to, got in touch. They left a message saying they are now able to offer me therapy. But I haven't returned the call, because I don't want to talk about it anymore, I just want to get on with my life.
But yesterday something someone said (or the way they said it) brought on some quite vivid memories. I thought it had eased slightly today, and went out to the shop. But in the shop everything became very unreal and I had to leave.
I slept all afternoon, and had a cry, so I'll probably be ok for ages now. But it's left me thinking about whether therapy would help, or whether it would just make things worse.
Opinions and advice would be gratefully received.