I just don't know what is true
I ran from the room last week, when T said we should start to talk about which Trauma was least bad.
I can convince myself that this was any or all of
T phoned me and said maybe we need to go slower, but also that she doesn't yet know if we will get another batch of 16 sessions. The two don't seem to go together. Perhaps there really isn't anything wrong with me at all, perhaps that's why they are so unwilling to offer support. I said if she is told we won't get any more sessions then I'm stopping now; there seems little point in jumping in only to find I'm swimming alone in a pool of ***
She has listened to me saying that I don't know or show my distress until it takes over, but if I can't recognise it, and she can't recognise it, how will either of us know when it gets too much? I'm already contemplating unsafe behaviour, though that also relates to a personal complication.
I'm hopelessly confused and lost
I ran from the room last week, when T said we should start to talk about which Trauma was least bad.
I can convince myself that this was any or all of
- basic cowardice
- healthy self defence
- the action of an Emotional Part
- clinical incompetence
T phoned me and said maybe we need to go slower, but also that she doesn't yet know if we will get another batch of 16 sessions. The two don't seem to go together. Perhaps there really isn't anything wrong with me at all, perhaps that's why they are so unwilling to offer support. I said if she is told we won't get any more sessions then I'm stopping now; there seems little point in jumping in only to find I'm swimming alone in a pool of ***
She has listened to me saying that I don't know or show my distress until it takes over, but if I can't recognise it, and she can't recognise it, how will either of us know when it gets too much? I'm already contemplating unsafe behaviour, though that also relates to a personal complication.
I'm hopelessly confused and lost