Rough few months....narcissistic mom ill from November till death Feb 22. then had to travel and take care of the last details. I do not travel well...do not do well with being out of normal environment...really do not do well in the outside world at all. Then returned "home" trying to come back to a base level....Thursday found out a friend murdered....beat to death....too close to own trauma....really struggling....too much going on....too many flashbacks, too scared to go out...just too much to go on.