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Long story short.. 18 month ago someone i was seeing n meant the world to me attempted suicide. We had been arguing n i was unaware of her mental state n long story short her family blamed me. They asked to speak to me at my job, said something had happened then in front of everyone blamed me for it. Mum n bro threatened me, called me names etc then left. I was in shock/traumatised then one month later threatened again then dad came looking for me. Got police involved who told them to stay away, work told me they were barred. I suffered with ptsd then bro keeps showing up glaring me out, laughing at me every couple of months. Work said they werent barred after all so had to put up with it, then 3 weeks ago bro and his partner whos always stood laughing with him approached me. I've had no contact with any of them since that day. Refused service, they act dumb. Stayed calm, they insisted to speak to a manager and i kept refusing service, i wasnt afraid i just made it clear i knew it was a windup attempt, then i started to get angry n made it clear i knew what they were doing. they left. They were incredibly angry i didnt serve them, but the anger i felt? My god... for a full week i was so angry, then happier than ive ever been, then sad? Work are now barring them, n i have to wait for them to show to make it official. Ive had like a years worth of therapy that helped me a great deal and although i dont entirely feel very afraid i feel a great mix of sad and anger with a bit of happyness. Why is this? Also, how can i deal with my anxiety etc? I feel i am getting better as time goes on, but i was alarmed at the effect them approaching me had. It felt like the wound was ripped open, is this normal with ptsd?