After knowing a long time that I never really felt comfortable in my hometown, having so many uncomfortable memories on the same streets (that I could one day describe in a diary). But since time has passed and once having the accomplishment that I managed to move out from the environment only to be forced back time later. In present I'm relieving bad memories as I haft to realise that I'm back at the streets where the awful memories began(has been a real torture mentally)
So. . .
I would like to know if anyone else feels the same about trying to avoid locations where the memories still resides? no matter how much you try to tell yourself that it's not the same anymore. Those streets are literally hell for me as I haft to walk on them as I go grocery shopping or taking a walk. To me it feels like a prison being stuck with the voices and flashbacks intruding on my self-esteem and especially PTSD. I can't fight it no matter how much I try. I feel so cornered and trapped entering those streets 24/7. This did not happen to me when I lived abroad since I adapted to a completely new setting and lifestyle, but in this hometown. Ive been on these streets ever since the trauma began. Nothing's new, everything in order over here.
So. . .
I would like to know if anyone else feels the same about trying to avoid locations where the memories still resides? no matter how much you try to tell yourself that it's not the same anymore. Those streets are literally hell for me as I haft to walk on them as I go grocery shopping or taking a walk. To me it feels like a prison being stuck with the voices and flashbacks intruding on my self-esteem and especially PTSD. I can't fight it no matter how much I try. I feel so cornered and trapped entering those streets 24/7. This did not happen to me when I lived abroad since I adapted to a completely new setting and lifestyle, but in this hometown. Ive been on these streets ever since the trauma began. Nothing's new, everything in order over here.