In a previous thread it was suggested to me (very wisely) that I need to grieve.
So, I would like to, but how?. I started writing in my diary all the major things that I have lost due to my childhood abuse....but as soon as I started writing it out (and feeling a bit sad) I heard all the other voices in my head telling me how grateful I should be because my current life is pretty good (limited but okay). I also keep hearing voices reminding that what I suffered was not that bad, and how much worse off other children were, how much worse off other adults are. And with those thoughts all my emotions stopped.
Does anyone have any thoughts or advice for this? Did anyone else have to work through this, giving yourself permission to grieve?
So, I would like to, but how?. I started writing in my diary all the major things that I have lost due to my childhood abuse....but as soon as I started writing it out (and feeling a bit sad) I heard all the other voices in my head telling me how grateful I should be because my current life is pretty good (limited but okay). I also keep hearing voices reminding that what I suffered was not that bad, and how much worse off other children were, how much worse off other adults are. And with those thoughts all my emotions stopped.
Does anyone have any thoughts or advice for this? Did anyone else have to work through this, giving yourself permission to grieve?