radicalgratitude
MyPTSD Pro
My therapist recently told me, "You were definitely spiritually abused by your father." His statement actually confirms what I already knew. So many times, I've wished that my dad was an atheist, because then he would have left God out of it.
I've been having trouble praying. I'm pretty open with God about it. My prayer consists of, "God, I don't trust you. I'm afraid of you." I figure He already knows this.
I want to overcome this. I want to have a good relationship with God but it makes me feel sick to think about. Sex and abuse and God have all been twisted and blurred together to the point where I can't separate them, at least right now.
I'm wondering if anyone has any resources for healing from this? I tried to find a book on the subject but they all seem to condemn religion altogether. Intellectually, I believe that God is love and that He is good. In my heart, I don't feel that way. I'd like my beliefs to match my feelings.
I've been having trouble praying. I'm pretty open with God about it. My prayer consists of, "God, I don't trust you. I'm afraid of you." I figure He already knows this.
I want to overcome this. I want to have a good relationship with God but it makes me feel sick to think about. Sex and abuse and God have all been twisted and blurred together to the point where I can't separate them, at least right now.
I'm wondering if anyone has any resources for healing from this? I tried to find a book on the subject but they all seem to condemn religion altogether. Intellectually, I believe that God is love and that He is good. In my heart, I don't feel that way. I'd like my beliefs to match my feelings.