AllSheWouldntSay
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I'm feeling safe in my home environment for the first time ever. I'm speaking to one therapist (phone sessions) that I've been working with for 6 years and I've started seeing a therapist in person; trying to transition. My history hasn't been processed because there hasn't been stability where I can work through stuff. The long term therapist and i have basically been doing crisis management. I can't count the times I lost housing, employment, social support, or were in abusive relationships over the last 6 years.
The new therapist hasn't even scratched the surface, but I feel like I'm understanding what's happening to me more than I ever have.
From 10/2016- present my symptoms have been uncontrollably glaring, due to re traumatization from various sources. Im finally seeing what complex trauma is and how I'm affected.
That being said; I've stabilized significantly in the last month. I do force myself to disassociate at work (I work with trauma victims) to make it through each shift. I am leaving that job because I'm trying to learn how to make myself my priority.
Anyway, there's been a lot of depersonalization at home. And I don't know what triggers it. It takes me a while to notice it. It usually sets in when I look in the mirror and I know it's my reflection, but I can not integrate the feeling that it's me.
I hear it's because I do feel safe enough to start looking at stuff. I have been having lots of new and. Intense feelings.
I guess I'm looking for suggestions on how to track my symptoms to see what my triggers are.
Thanks !
The new therapist hasn't even scratched the surface, but I feel like I'm understanding what's happening to me more than I ever have.
From 10/2016- present my symptoms have been uncontrollably glaring, due to re traumatization from various sources. Im finally seeing what complex trauma is and how I'm affected.
That being said; I've stabilized significantly in the last month. I do force myself to disassociate at work (I work with trauma victims) to make it through each shift. I am leaving that job because I'm trying to learn how to make myself my priority.
Anyway, there's been a lot of depersonalization at home. And I don't know what triggers it. It takes me a while to notice it. It usually sets in when I look in the mirror and I know it's my reflection, but I can not integrate the feeling that it's me.
I hear it's because I do feel safe enough to start looking at stuff. I have been having lots of new and. Intense feelings.
I guess I'm looking for suggestions on how to track my symptoms to see what my triggers are.
Thanks !