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Lost my love to ptsd
Hi I hope I am in the right place. My boyfriend of 2 year's just packed up and moved out with no warning. We had a great relationship and he is the love of my life. We even talked about getting married. A few month's ago his son ran away from home and we were also in the midst of trying to move so our stress level was high. He began emotionally pulling away from me. Due to the stress of everything we did have normal arguments but nothing we never quickly made up from. His son did come home and we did find a new place. Things seemed to go back to normal except he still seemed distant. He finally told me he has bwen dealing with some ptsd...he was a fireman emt first responder and lost a few people. One hit him super hard...one of his best friends went into work a fire with him and didnt make it out. He was the crew cheif so he blames himself. He says he doesnt want to lean on anyone, that this is his burden to deal with and he doesnt want anyone to see him implode...He been going to a psychiatrist and has been told he has guilt and anger issues....he has told me he loves me but he isnt all there. He initially said he wanted to work his way back to me. Now he has blocked me from his life so to speak...we have talked twice in person, but most communication has been texting which i usually initiated. He told me yesterday he still loved me but when i asked,him to stop and see me he suddenly changed and said he had nothing to say it was nothing i did but he couldnt be with me. He tells me he isnt ready to see me. Asked why he could see his friends and seem ok but difficult to see me...said he puts on a good,show for me!!!
Sorry ao long i,guess i just,dont know if i should wait for him and show him i won't leave?
Sorry ao long i,guess i just,dont know if i should wait for him and show him i won't leave?