Hi everyone,
So lately I've been having these very self-violent intrusive thoughts that play over and over in my head and almost sound like someone telling me to hurt myself. I don't think they're auditory hallucinations; they're more like my own voice repeating very rapidly in my head until I act. Last night, I felt like someone was telling me to cut my wrists and kill myself, and it was the only thing I could focus on. My thoughts seemed cluttered and overlapping during these spells, and when I decided to try to write it out, my handwriting was very large and erratic. They don't seem completely like my regular intrusive thoughts, and they frighten me a little bit.
I'm not really sure what to make of these symptoms, and I was wondering if anyone else experiences these in relation to PTSD, or if they might be indicative of another disorder? I'm also going to bring it up with my therapist and psychiatrist when I see them later this week, but I was wondering if any of you have experience with these? It worries me a bit since my doctors have a working theory that I may be developing schizophrenia. :(
So lately I've been having these very self-violent intrusive thoughts that play over and over in my head and almost sound like someone telling me to hurt myself. I don't think they're auditory hallucinations; they're more like my own voice repeating very rapidly in my head until I act. Last night, I felt like someone was telling me to cut my wrists and kill myself, and it was the only thing I could focus on. My thoughts seemed cluttered and overlapping during these spells, and when I decided to try to write it out, my handwriting was very large and erratic. They don't seem completely like my regular intrusive thoughts, and they frighten me a little bit.
I'm not really sure what to make of these symptoms, and I was wondering if anyone else experiences these in relation to PTSD, or if they might be indicative of another disorder? I'm also going to bring it up with my therapist and psychiatrist when I see them later this week, but I was wondering if any of you have experience with these? It worries me a bit since my doctors have a working theory that I may be developing schizophrenia. :(