My case file with vocational rehabilitation has been closed for lack of service use and difficulty contacting me. I was started with it after I was released from the hospital but I do not really know what it is. I have never used them, I do not even know how to use them really. I have been out of it all quite completely until recently. I have never really worked but I need to. That is the only way to live after all. I do not know how to find someone to employ me, or in what I could be employed for now. Hell, I do not even know how to ask for help there or what help I could really get. Of course I am ashamed that I am classified as someone they offer services to, but I am also afraid to really ask because my situation is presently very precarious. I do want to change everything now, nothing is beneficial but I can not even think of what to ask about. I have no idea about anything really. I do not think I can ever drive. Sometimes my memory is spectacularly horrible so to be honest I have not really even ever been out to many places since this all happened. I need some help here as soon as possible, how to deal with them, what kinds of tings to ask for, etc. I will try to do what I can but this has all reminded me of all of the other real problems I have.