In my traumatic situation I was knocked unconscious and awoke to a beautiful sunny day, after a moment I oriented and realized I was in a complete nightmare. I'll spare details as to not trigger anyone.
But now, when I wake up to a beautiful day I often feel "out of it", sort of groggy, I have difficulty concentrating, generally lacking motivation to do anything, depression hits.
I think about waking up on that beautiful day and getting ready to go to the beach, how relaxed we were right up until the moment the car accident happened. How a perfect day turned into a bloody nightmare.
Everything was so normal, so peaceful. We weren't in a place of danger, we were in a place of comfort. So now, I am beginning to forget even the feeling I used to have of "waking up" and just laying peacefully in bed.
The nightmares suck, waking up with some level of anxiety every night sucks. But for me the worst are days like today, when I just feel like I'm a ghost trying to distract myself from memories. Home alone with a long list of things that I probably should be doing, but somehow never getting started.
Am I alone in this sort of feeling? It isn't every day, but some days are just like this.
But now, when I wake up to a beautiful day I often feel "out of it", sort of groggy, I have difficulty concentrating, generally lacking motivation to do anything, depression hits.
I think about waking up on that beautiful day and getting ready to go to the beach, how relaxed we were right up until the moment the car accident happened. How a perfect day turned into a bloody nightmare.
Everything was so normal, so peaceful. We weren't in a place of danger, we were in a place of comfort. So now, I am beginning to forget even the feeling I used to have of "waking up" and just laying peacefully in bed.
The nightmares suck, waking up with some level of anxiety every night sucks. But for me the worst are days like today, when I just feel like I'm a ghost trying to distract myself from memories. Home alone with a long list of things that I probably should be doing, but somehow never getting started.
Am I alone in this sort of feeling? It isn't every day, but some days are just like this.