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I don't know why, but sometimes I really want to have something happen that causes me to have to go to the ER or to have to be in the hospital.
I don't understand why and it's not that I don't have experience being in the hospital. It wasn't particularly enjoyable and the one time I was in the ambulance I was really scared due to my inability to breathe or move...
Despite those experiences I still think about how I'd like something to happen to end me up in the hospital or I'll be lying in my bed wishing I'd be in the hospital.
I don't think it's because I want sympathy from others because I don't like getting visitors. I really hate it and I just want to be alone.
During times of feeling suicidal then it makes more sense to me, but other than that it doesn't.
I don't know if this is actually related to PTSD or whatever, but I thought I'd ask anyways because I've been surprised before.
I don't understand why and it's not that I don't have experience being in the hospital. It wasn't particularly enjoyable and the one time I was in the ambulance I was really scared due to my inability to breathe or move...
Despite those experiences I still think about how I'd like something to happen to end me up in the hospital or I'll be lying in my bed wishing I'd be in the hospital.
I don't think it's because I want sympathy from others because I don't like getting visitors. I really hate it and I just want to be alone.
During times of feeling suicidal then it makes more sense to me, but other than that it doesn't.
I don't know if this is actually related to PTSD or whatever, but I thought I'd ask anyways because I've been surprised before.