Hello everyone. I hope this is the right place to post this. I'm recently coming to terms with childhood sexual abuse, and am viewing old thoughts and feelings under this new lens.
As a result I've begun paying attention to a strange sensation in my body that I've experienced on and off my whole life: when I feel negative emotions, there's an odd sexual component, like a sensation of tingling or being touched in my genitals (ick). It's very disturbing and upsetting to me, and has consequently been pushed away and denied over the years.
Recently, this sensation has accompanied processing and work with my T, or whenever I think about my experiences as a child. Is this a body memory? Is this common? Do others experience this? It's taken me about a month to even attempt to post this, such is the shame and anxiety I feel over this topic.
Thanks.
Eppi.
As a result I've begun paying attention to a strange sensation in my body that I've experienced on and off my whole life: when I feel negative emotions, there's an odd sexual component, like a sensation of tingling or being touched in my genitals (ick). It's very disturbing and upsetting to me, and has consequently been pushed away and denied over the years.
Recently, this sensation has accompanied processing and work with my T, or whenever I think about my experiences as a child. Is this a body memory? Is this common? Do others experience this? It's taken me about a month to even attempt to post this, such is the shame and anxiety I feel over this topic.
Thanks.
Eppi.