What bad shit have you done in your life, with or without PTSD, lets get it all out and about so things are not sitting on your shoulders any longer. Its time to be really honest with yourself. This could be a daily post, weekly, monthy, annually, hell, just anything in your life that is sitting on your chest, get rid of it. This can be anything from little to big.... and yes, even illegal. My list is so big, I couldn't think of it all now, so I will just start with some small things. I have cheated on girlfriends I have had multiple girlfriends at once, lieing to each of them I have beaten people up just because they looked at me when drunk Not proud of any of the above, but they are part of my past.