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was just diagnosed by a Psychiatrists who want's me to see a therapist for EMDR. I just can't seem to make the call. I don't think I need to recount my trauma.
This year I completed 16 EMDR sessions and the vast majority (most all of it) of my trauma memories have been numbed (desensitized) and I no longer flash back and am not triggered now. However, I still have the startle "fight or flight" response to loud noises, voices, sirens, etc. And during my EMDR sessions, I did not have to "recount" my trauma during EMDR, my brain took over and trauma after trauma event were brought forth and connected one to the other looping together in succession and were numbed.
And @Bleev, when the multiple memories came they were then numbed, however, EMDR Therapy was very difficult for me with multiple traumas in that I had to contend with numerous sexual, verbal, and physical traumas during each session. You have choices and there are so many threads in this forum to help you decide in whatever you choose to do. And I wish you well.
To stay on topic in this thread, the father and the mother if both were alive would be thankful to know that prior to their deaths...I did not have the knowing of how severely they had horrfically abused my mind, body, and spirit...or I may have...given the chance cursed them out...and also...well I don't even want to think about what I would've felt vindicated in doing to both of them...individually...water over the damn dam, and under the damn bridge. Let it be.
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