I have an issue that when my ptsd and anxiety are full horde for weeks into months I will have a breakdown. Mine aren't just ones where I'm just sitting in a ball and crying. I get very violent, in the privacy of my own home and alone. I will break lots of things and scream uncontrollably for over an hour. it only happens maybe a couple times a year when my mental illnesses will not let up and I cannot find any relief what so ever. just this past weekend I had one, but this time it was in front of a few people and I am entirely embarrassed. I was smashing my limbs against things and sobbing while screaming. these past couple weeks have been so strenuous, constant panic attacks and persistent anxiety. I cant fully sleep, I don't really eat and I guess I snapped. I did have some drinks and I think perhaps it played a part in the non subtlety of exposing it to people. but I just cant believe I let people see that side of me... I have chalked the feelings of being overwhelmed to the unhealthy relationship I am in because that's pretty much the only contributing factor right now to my anxiety... I start my days off so good and the moment he texts its about something that makes me feel anxious. every. single. day.. I haven't had an episode in almost two years... its definitely thrown up some flags to look at my surroundings. does anyone else do this? just have an insane freak out? I feel absolutely ashamed.