Angelica_89
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Hi, so this entire situation and experience has been very new to me which is why I'm seeking advice here. Around the beginning of February I met one of the most amazing guys I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and we clicked right away. We began hanging out more on a daily basis and the more time we spend together I learned that he has PTSD from his time in the army. We began our journey as just platonic friends but the relationship became physical within a month or so. I was happy with the way things were going and although his mentality is extremely different I was learning how to manage it. Just recently I came to him with a proposition of making our relationship official and he totally freaked out on me. He told me he wasn't ready to be with anyone because he couldn't even take care of himself properly at this point. I voiced that I understood and that I knew we had a huge battle in front of us but I was willing to work with it. I told him I knew who he was but I was willing to accept him with all his issues. He then proceeded to call me selfish, naive, and stupid for even asking for something like that in my life. After cooling off for a couple of days I apologized and things were back to just being platonic friends until last week when things became physical again.
At this point I'm walking on eggshells and feeling very confused. I've developed feelings for him because of all the time we spend together. We basically do everything a couple does except he refuses to make it an official relationship. There are days where he stays up for 36-48 hrs. because he can't sleep and then he goes on a 16-24 hr. sleeping binge. He also gets into these moods that I've also learned how to maneuver through. Everyday gets a bit easier but there are days where I feel we take like ten steps back. Currently, I am the only person in his life who spends as much time as I do with him, otherwise he prefers being a complete hermit. There are times when he opens up to me and shares so much but it's like when he realizes what he's doing he shuts off again closing me completely out.
I guess what I'm wondering based on peoples previous experiences, is it worth pursuing and hanging on? He is such a unique and beautiful person. I am finding it hard to even thing about completely cutting him out of my life like so many of my friends have suggested because he's literally become like my best friend. Am I really being stupid and naive for accepting him the way he is and being willing to work through his issues with him? This is all new territory for me and I'm trying my best to learn how to maneuver through it. Any information/advice is greatly appreciated!
At this point I'm walking on eggshells and feeling very confused. I've developed feelings for him because of all the time we spend together. We basically do everything a couple does except he refuses to make it an official relationship. There are days where he stays up for 36-48 hrs. because he can't sleep and then he goes on a 16-24 hr. sleeping binge. He also gets into these moods that I've also learned how to maneuver through. Everyday gets a bit easier but there are days where I feel we take like ten steps back. Currently, I am the only person in his life who spends as much time as I do with him, otherwise he prefers being a complete hermit. There are times when he opens up to me and shares so much but it's like when he realizes what he's doing he shuts off again closing me completely out.
I guess what I'm wondering based on peoples previous experiences, is it worth pursuing and hanging on? He is such a unique and beautiful person. I am finding it hard to even thing about completely cutting him out of my life like so many of my friends have suggested because he's literally become like my best friend. Am I really being stupid and naive for accepting him the way he is and being willing to work through his issues with him? This is all new territory for me and I'm trying my best to learn how to maneuver through it. Any information/advice is greatly appreciated!