Seeking_Nirvana
MyPTSD Pro
I am trying to figure out if I want to move forward in uncovering some repressed memories. I'm not even sure if they are memories because they are so vague, and feel more like weird feelings.
With that said, I was hoping anyone here that had repressed memories and was able to uncover them could give me your thoughts about it.
1) If you had the choice would you have left the vagueness of the feelings alone, (or) are you glad you uncovered the memories and got definite details?
2) Once the vagueness left and you had the exact details because the memory returned, how overwhelming was it?
3) Was the vague feelings pretty much the same as the exact details? Also, did you find out more things happened to you besides just the vague feelings?
4) How did the memories come back to you? A little at a time, or some other method?
I recently had a memory of being at my uncle's house that triggered some uneasy feelings, but I cant put those feelings into words. Mostly just a butterfly in my stomach. I tried to force myself to remember which has caused severe depression and some real bad uneasy feelings every time I think about my childhood, whether it be bad, good or indifferent.
I've had several people tell me not to uncover the memories because they may be to painful. I think if I will myself not to think about it anymore (because I really don't know if it's true anyway) then maybe those weird feelings will go away. If they don't go away, do I have to know the details to get better?
I kind of just want to find out what happened NOW so I can deal with it and move on, but I'm sick of waiting on these little vague feelings. I also don't like having it in the back of my mind that my uncle molested me when I don't know if he did.
I'm thinking since I can't get the memories NOW then I want to put it out of my mind once and for all. It's taking up to much of my time wondering about it.
Any thoughts would be appreciated.
Tammy
With that said, I was hoping anyone here that had repressed memories and was able to uncover them could give me your thoughts about it.
1) If you had the choice would you have left the vagueness of the feelings alone, (or) are you glad you uncovered the memories and got definite details?
2) Once the vagueness left and you had the exact details because the memory returned, how overwhelming was it?
3) Was the vague feelings pretty much the same as the exact details? Also, did you find out more things happened to you besides just the vague feelings?
4) How did the memories come back to you? A little at a time, or some other method?
I recently had a memory of being at my uncle's house that triggered some uneasy feelings, but I cant put those feelings into words. Mostly just a butterfly in my stomach. I tried to force myself to remember which has caused severe depression and some real bad uneasy feelings every time I think about my childhood, whether it be bad, good or indifferent.
I've had several people tell me not to uncover the memories because they may be to painful. I think if I will myself not to think about it anymore (because I really don't know if it's true anyway) then maybe those weird feelings will go away. If they don't go away, do I have to know the details to get better?
I kind of just want to find out what happened NOW so I can deal with it and move on, but I'm sick of waiting on these little vague feelings. I also don't like having it in the back of my mind that my uncle molested me when I don't know if he did.
I'm thinking since I can't get the memories NOW then I want to put it out of my mind once and for all. It's taking up to much of my time wondering about it.
Any thoughts would be appreciated.
Tammy