I don't know were to start but I guess the best way is to just let my words flow. I am with the most wonderful precious girl in the world. We went to high school together and lost touch even though I think she did pay me any mind I thought she was it. Years later she lost both her daughters in an accident. That was 22 years ago. We have been together for 5 years now. First we had a quick love affair and got married. After 2 years she left me. Got a divorce and I still made sure she was taken care off and was there every time she bounced from place to place. After her last roommate more or less threw her out I told her she was welcomed to stay here. After about a month of we'll be roommates me dating someone pushed her to a point were we actually talked. We got back together and have had our ups and down but all the while I cannot get her to be emotional. Either in an romantic kiss or in bed. I may be loosing my mind but it is very devastating to me that I don't turn her on at all. We have sex but that's all. And I feel like she's seeing it as a chore. All the while she does little things that shows her love for me. I just need some help trying to understand PTSD. She also has been diagnosed with depression and Being mild bi polar. I hope I've not been to detailed if so I apologize.